2 things....or more to address today.

I have been extremely sleepy... mostly because of winter months cause my morning sinuses to be extremely clogged and it makes wearing my sleep apnea cpap mask impossible.. Wearing the mask is a bother any ways. #1 I sleep on my stomach, #2 The hose is a pain, #3 and sinuses make it a pain. The ultimate reason is 4/5 cpap customer struggle wear their mask a whole night with out taking them off. I feel that it is do to my over bite. I have started a new job with new hours and I am still getting acclimated to the schedule and I get home late and get to sleep around 2pm after I settle down and after talking to my wife... Being a sleep apnea patient, it is hard to express the mood swings we can go on. It is like surviving on 1/2 night sleep. I am a horrible husband and only wish she would would understand it is my lack of sleep and new hours of work... my nerves are shot and pushing me will not work... or being un patient. My outburst are not to be forgiven and I am only hoping that that those that have spouses with sleep apnea to be patient and not to take some outburst as a threat...it is like when you have not slept for a while and then try to work through a day.... it just gets hazy... the next thing that has been bugging me lately is that fact that I left on a journey to improve my stars, my status quo and this past week I returned to the very place I set out to never be in again... on the phones... I am creative and a designer and I burnt our my brain cells on phone jobs... it seems like a mental block comes over me... I am struggling at my training and hoping that I can pass all the test. I have gone on long enough with out working and I just want to matter.

....Lastly to take off the edge we went to Rhode Island Diner, it is a nice drive through Park City and on the back roads to Heber to come along a old fashioned Diner Car Diner!!! The food is awesome too! Service a bit quirky but just for the trip and drive it is worth it. Prices are around 6-12 dollars and the Reuben is to die for... I am not a big RYE bread fan... Make your own burgers and the shakes... YUMS the word. Take the ride into Oakley then keep going and you can turn left into Heber or go back on the main road into the Junction to Park City or Cheyenne... On good days we go to Heber then through Provo Canyon, to Orem then back to SLC. It makes for a nice drive. TO LEARN MORE ABOUT THE DINER GO TO THIS WEBSITE;http://www.roadislanddiner.com/index.html ENJOY!

The gigs up! - You Got me!

Some times in life you just have to say uncle - the gigs up! Basically I am recapping my last 4 months of searching for work. I believe the lord is humbling me and teaching me great lessons, I just hope I am listening better. I have had at least 1 to 2 interviews a week starting in just January alone. Oct.-Dec. I whole whopping 3 maybe. I have learned to relax, go in excited, be truthful and dont be truthful; and my most favorite of all "Tell me about yourself?" - really means tell me all your qualifications for the job. It is a pure jungle out there. My last excursion was going to St. George for 30 minutes of an interview. I guess you could say that the journey was worth it... and I am thankful I took the journey with my wife. So I spent 4 years of learning graphic design to today landing my anti-dream job...phones and being on them all day long... yep' I got hired finally - truth be known I actually start a sorta graphic design job for 8 hours a week for 35 bucks a hr. BUT it starts in March some time?? Just recently I have had some great leads and interviews for those great "GD" job. A toy company in Tempe AZ, a shirt design company in ST. GEORGE, and working for a Mac outlet called Simply Mac. So that battle wages and now looking at starting training for a month and not seeing my wife and all for the mercy of money... what do I do? Say uncle I am not fit to be a graphic designer or take this time as an opportunity to update my portfolio during the day and hit it harder this summer - fall. I could get my certification in teaching and go down that route?? I could actually write a book, I could start up a business of my many ideas I have... or just say - I am Ryan and I am meant to be on the phones.. its not a bad thing. I guess I have fought for a graphic design job and feel like a chump giving in to my back up career option. Well what ever I do... I will be doing it... and doing my best I can. So in March I might be working 2 jobs and getting our income tax return - so money will be coming in and that is good because the car payment and insurance need some love. Plus all our other bills. I also have a side idea of making a memoir book for my mother for all those that did not get a chance to meet her.

ALSO - I have been tutoring Giovani, I met G' when I advertised my tutoring flyers and he wanted me to help him on a spanish newspaper, we worked together for a bit while I helped do the design work for the paper, the work was not worth the pay so I dropped out and thought I lost a good friend, however after the new year he approached me to tutor him for real and he would do the graphics and editing of the newspaper. So I have been going a couple times a week to his house and teaching him photoshop, he has been picking it up really fast and has done 2 editions already. Well he is so busy and has 2 twins - so I mentioned to Linda that we could babysit the twins to help out if they wanted to.. so last Friday we actually got the chance to spend most the day with them. We watched Dora, went to McD's and the above picture is the twins zonked out in the back of our new car on the ride to the Sandy Aquarium. So we let them sleep and hung out in the car for about 30 minutes... then we went in to see the fishies... at first they were just waking up - but after 10 minutes they were everywhere and was just in ahh, looking at all the wonders of the sea, from sharks to turtles to snakes to their favorite... the penguins!! we got to watch them feed them too. So we went home and I crashed and then the parents came and got the kids... I think they missed them too.. It was a good day and I proved to myself that I am a good fit for raising kids at least not as scared. Peace out and please visit this blog to find out more about our crazy adventures.